Angry



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I'm angry.

I've been cheated.

Angry at my body for early menopause. Cheated out of having another baby.

Angry at the way my mind and body feel during this "change of life".

Hot flushes that just envelope and consume me. Bringing with it bouts of nausea, agitation and endless perspiration.

A sense of wanting to crawl out of my skin. If only I could.

Mood swings strike without warning. Anger, depression, sadness, tears or agitation. It doesn't care which emotion it decides to impart on me at any given moment. I'm just along for the ride.

Back to using a diary as my mind has decided to be so fogetful.

Fatigue that never seems to go away.

Restless sleep as my body's hormone levels alter during the night.

How long will this last? 10, 20, 30 years?

I'm tired.

I'm angry.